Sometimes people leave an impression and sometimes it's like their paths never crossed yours. I guess with Michael it was the latter.
                              
Although there's still a chance I might see him again. He was only in his first year and I went to college parties quite often.
                              
"Aw, he wasn't a good hook up?" Jake said, pretending to be sad for me.
                              
"You know I don't do that." I sighed. Is it that weird? I mean, yes, I've been to parties before where I'd ended up kissing a guy but that rarely happened.
                              
"I don't understand why not. It's fun." Jake wasn't letting this go. I can understand why though. It's just because he's the opposite of me. Gwen understands better, I guess because she's a girl. Jake on the other hand seemed grossed out when you mention a serious relationship.
                              
"It might be fun, but is it weird to want something more? I don't want sloppy kisses or random makeout sessions with guys. I want a relationship." Why was I even bothering to explain. Hell, I didn't know why I was wired like this.
                              
"You're such a girl." Jake rolled his eyes, amused. I was getting a little offended. Wow, I must've been in a foul mood. I don't get offended easily.
                              
"Don't you ever want something more? Yes it's fun to have a physical relationship with someone but don't you ever crave for a deeper connection? Just being with someone you can trust? No tricks, just being yourself and knowing the other person loves you regardless? I guess when I hook up with some guy it doesn't do anything for me because there's still a void that only a relationship can fill. I don't like being reminded of that."
                              
Where did that come from? I didn't even know what I was saying until the words were coming out. I liked being single. I don't get girls that need to be in a relationship all the time, I enjoy my freedom. I guess sometimes I miss it though.
                              
Nobody talked after my little rant. Jake looked like he wanted to say something but didn't. He looked ... different. As if he totally understood what I was saying. That's impossible. We'd had this discussion so many times before and he had always said that I was being silly. Now, he just looked vulnerable.
                              
I wanted to ask him about it but he wouldn't say anything, he'd just start joking. It would be too personal. Maybe I could talk to him alone some time. I just had a feeling this conversation wasn't over.
                              
"Ow brainfreeze." Gwen held her head. She'd been drinking her milkshake a little too fast. I wasn't sure if that was really the case, maybe she wanted to break the tension.
                              
I think everyone was relieved because we fell into an easy conversation after that.
                              
After we'd finished our food I didn't want to go home yet. I wanted to do something.
                              
"So, what are the plans?" I asked. Maybe the guys had an idea.
                              
"Sorry, can't hang, my sister wants to go shopping with me." Gwen looked like she was sorry. She always felt guilty saying no to her friends even though we never got mad. Obviously she'd already made plans, there was no need to get worked up about it. I gave her a reassuring smile and she smiled back.
                              
"I have eh... a date." Jake said. Why did he say it like that? Normally, Jake would beam when he'd announced another conquest. I made a mental note to definitely talk to him alone some time.
                              
"No problem, I'm expecting a juicy 온라인카지노게임 tomorrow." Jake answered me with a ghost of a smile. Dude, was he PMSing or what?
                              
"Snake?" I batted my eyelashes.
                              
He shook his head. "Work."
                              
I nudged Code who was sitting beside me. Very closely might I add. Stupid little booth.