Sai was confused. "Dohri zindagi matlab?

Virat let out a deep sigh as he explained. "Apart from this loving Virat which you know there is one more aspect of my personality that is, the don Virat Chavan. He is part of me, my dark reality. I cant separate him from me. But you will not be able to bear his monstrosity, his darkness. You are an innocent angel, jaan. Forget about loving, you wont be able to look me like that." 

Sai was not ready to understand anything. She thought he was blowing it out of proportions. She knew he was a criminal and she has seen a lot of them in the dance bar. She had made her peace with this fact. She didn't think it will be that big deal in their relationship.

"I don't care, Virat. What you are, what you do. I just know that I love you....Don't push me away like this. In thode dino mein jo maine tumhare sath rehkar mehsus kiya hai...wo is duniya mein sabse special hai mere liye. Main bas itna janti hoon ki main phir kabhi kisi ke liye wo sab feel nahi kar paungi. Please, mujhe khud se durr mat karo." Sai wailed. 

But Virat had already made up his mind about it. He didn't listen to her. Its been few days now. Since that day they have been arguing again and again. He was saying the same thing. 

Somewhere Sai knew that he might be right but her heart was not letting her accept it. She was deprived of love all her life and now that she got it she didn't want to let it go for any reason. 

Finally, after few more days, Virat came and informed Sai about her admission in the college and the hostel. He asked her to pack the bags, when she refused he himself packed her bags. Sai just kept crying silently. She thought he will melt down but looked like he had turned his heart into stone. He held her hand and almost shoved her into the car. He drove them to Pune.

Sai was continuously crying in the car. Her tears had not stopped even for once. Virat was sitting beside her, he tried to console her few times but she refused to even look at him in anger. The car stopped as it reached the destination. Sai and Virat came out. They have come to Pune, Institute of computers and technology. Virat completed all the formalities in the college while Sai just kept standing there like a statue.

Virat led her to her allotted room in the hostel and placed her bags. "Your fees and all the expenses have been paid and there is enough money in your bank account. Phir bhi, kuch bhi jarurat ho toh phone kar dena."

Sai looked at him angrily. "Nahi, rehne do, pehle hi bahut ehsaan kar diye tumne, Virat. Ab tumhara aur koi ehsaan nahi chahiye."

She hoped her anger would bring out some emotions in him and he would stop or at least try to understand her feelings but he turned to go out of the room.

 Sai let go of her anger and held his hand. "Please, don't do this to us. Mujhe le chalo yaha se. I don't want to be away from you. I cant...I just cant...I love you." Sai pleaded. 

Virat removed her hand. He had to go immediately. If he stayed there and looked in her eyes even once, he would not be able to leave her like this. He took a deep breath and left her alone to cry over their unfulfilled love .

Days turned into weeks and weeks turned into months but neither Virat nor Sai was able to move on in life. Both were missing each other and wanted to nothing more than to close the distance between them but Virat had controlled by reminding himself again and again that he is doing everything for Sai's happiness and better future. 

Sai, on the other hand was not willing to give up hope. Everyday without fail she called Virat in a hope to make him understand the depth of her love, to convince him to take her back from here. But Virat didn't listen to her. He had now even stopped taking up her calls. Sai was shattering down piece by piece, she was slowly slipping into depression and Virat was drowning himself in alcohol to forget her but nothing was helping them.

When one day her suffering become unbearable, Sai decided to confront Virat one last time. She had decided that either she will convince him or she will take her own life as she definitely cant go on like this. She ran away from the hostel. 

Virat got the call about her from hostel when they couldn't find her and he panicked. He sent his men to Pune to search her while he himself started looking for her in Mumbai. He looked everywhere from her uncle's house, the dance bar, her friends house, their bunglow but he couldn't found her anywhere. His men informed that she was nowhere in Pune also.

Virat was worried sick for her. He was having all sorts of doubts and fears regarding her safety now. He was cursing himself to make her go through immense pain. Feeling tired and defeated he came to his home in the chawl. He wanted to cry his heart out here. He stood before the door and found it opened. He looked at it in confusion and pushed the door. 

Virat entered there and found Sai sitting on a rocking chair there, eyes closed, listening to the songs on radio. He couldn't believe, he was searching for her everywhere and here she was. He thanked his stars that she was safe. Sai opened her eyes when she heard the sound of door opening. Both of them looked at each other and found the same yearning in them. Just then the song on the radio changed to convey the unsaid words between them.

Tere dar par sanam chale aaye
Tu na aaya toh hum chale aaye
 Tere dar par sanam chale aaye
 Tu na aaya toh hum chale aaye
 Chale aaye, chale aaye
 Tere dar par sanam chale aaye
 Tu na aaya toh hum chale aaye

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to be continued....

PS    will try to post another update in half n hour or so.

Its a beautiful song and one of my most fav song. If you still haven't discovered this gem then here is your chance-