"Why wouldn't I be?" I flick an ice cube across the water. Truth is, I'm a bit sore, but that's never stopped me from performing well as long as my head is in the right place.
"Big game tonight."
"It's pre-season."
"Big game for Bellerive," he clarifies. "All those sponsors and season ticket holders are looking for a show."
"They'll definitely get a game." We're playing the Michigan Moose, who are, technically, a better team. As long as I can get fired up, that won't matter. Having Jonathan come here to tell me to get my ass in gear is not needed, wanted, or appreciated. "Unless you think I intend to play half-assed, I'm not sure why you're here."
"The stakes are high," Jonathan says.
"Dad." Sawyer appears at his side. "You should go help with all the other things going on at the game tonight. I've got Logan handled."
Sawyer has no idea what any of those "other" things would be—hockey is still not her sport. I can't miss an opportunity to fuck with her a bit.
"She handles me very well, sir. Stick handling skills, in particular." I bite my cheek to keep from flashing a grin at the annoyed expression that appears on Sawyer's face.
"In a professional manner," she says.    
"She is definitely an expert," I agree. "Grinding me hard."
She glares at me for a beat and then turns a falsely sweet smile on her dad. "See? Just like you wanted. He's handled."
Jonathan glances between us, seems satisfied and wanders back out into the main office. Their conversation is too low for me to catch all of it before he leaves, but when Sawyer comes back to the door of the glass room, it's clear she's not amused.
"Sexual innuendoes? Am I going to have to sue you for sexual harassment?"
"If you've got a dirty mind, that's on you, doc. Everything I said was factually correct."
"Stick handling skills? Grinding you hard? Really?"
"That's why I'm in this bath, aren't I?" The timer she set beeps, and I rise out of the frigid water to grab my towel. She averts her gaze, which feels like both a win and a loss. 
"You're in the bath because there's research that suggests an ice bath before intense competition might improve performance. We're testing that theory with these pre-season games before it really matters." 
After I've wrapped the towel around myself, her posture and pensive expression tell me she's weighing her next words. I don't know if I've ever paid such close attention to the subtle shifts in someone else's mood before. It's unsettling, but also oddly comforting, to realize that I'm capable of giving a shit about anyone else's thoughts and feelings when I barely know them. 
"What?" I ask. "You're thinking about something. Spit it out."
"Are you still looking for someone else? To train you?"
"Not actively," I say. "I put my manager and agent on standby. They've got a list of names to approach, if you don't want the job, or I stop thinking you can do it."
"I can do it," she says. "I am doing it."
"I wasn't bullshitting your dad, doc. You've handled me beautifully the last few weeks. I like your methods, but I also need them to work."
"We'll see tonight, then."
"I'm not going to base whether we keep working together or not on one game. That'd be foolish. You already told me you need eight weeks before you'd be confident any improvements were related to you." 
And I've never been tempted to maintain a professional relationship in the hopes of securing a personal one before, but my gut tells me that if I decide not to work with her as a trainer, I'll never get a shot at anything else either. Not that I want that. 
Or maybe I do. 
Can't seem to fucking decide. 
But I am wondering whether our working relationship is what's made her put the brakes on the more personal connection that was starting. Maybe I don't want anything more with her, and I definitely don't think I need it, but I do wish I'd had the chance to see what it might have been. 
"I appreciate that you're giving me the time to prove myself," she says, but her tone is stiff, professional.
I fucking hate it.
"I'll see you tonight after the game." I slip into the changing room to get dressed before heading to the arena just as the bell goes for her next physio client. 
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