her chest clenched as her voice grew powerful, the wind picking up like vargas was calling her. her arms are outstretched, like she's being pulled by two sides. 
        she ran towards the cave. "if only i knew what my heart was telling me! don't know what i'm feeling. is this just a dream? oh ━━ oh, yeah."
        she halted in front of it, remembering when she first crossed, wanting to hunt every vampire. she'd been so blinded in wanting to impress her father that she forgot to be the sunshine she was ━━ be human and kind and soft like her mother. she put her guard up with vargas because it was easier than betraying her people, but she would be betraying herself if she let him slip away. "if only i could read the signs in front of me."
        "i could find a way to who i'm meant to be, oh ━━ oh, if only." she'd be betraying her heart. vargas showed his care, and she almost pushed him away ━━ almost. "if only, if only."
         "every step, every word, with every hour i'm falling in." she stepped closer to the dimness of the cave, knowing she couldn't pass. her dad would see she's gone, so she staggered back, twirling. "to something new, something brave. to someone i've never been. i can't decide what's wrong, what's right, which way should i go?"
        "if only i knew what my heart was telling me." a tear fell down her cheek as she sang, conflicted. her sister had victor, but that means she wouldn't be enough for their dad either, that his own children betrayed him. although he's never believed in her ever since her mother died, she couldn't leave him, too. "don't know what i'm feeling, is this just a dream? oh ━━ oh, yeah. if only i could read the signs in front of me, i can find a way to who i'm meant to be, oh ━━ oh."
        "if only, yeah!" she ran back towards the beach, bending down to let her fingertips graze the water in pain. she fell to the shore, legs wet from the soft waves as she threw her hands in the air, salty tears matching the ocean. "am i crazy? maybe, we could happen, yeah." 
        she looked to the moon, making her tear glimmer. "will you still be with me when the magics all run out?"
        her voice cracked, chest heaving deeper as she leaned back, blonde hair mixing with the sand. the tide rolls in, dampening her back as her hand plays with the grains of crystallized sand. 
        "if only i knew what my heart was telling me," hummed elysia, barely a whisper. "don't know what i'm feeling .   .   . is this just a dream?" 
        her voice goes lower, closing her eyes as she makes peace with her reality. she didn't say she had to like it. the wave crashed again as the sound to her soundless harmony.