6)CONFESSION

                                        

                                              

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I groaned while trying to move my hands, but I couldn't feel them. I could hear some noises like chatter from the background, but I couldn't tell who it was or what they were discussing about. I tried opening my eyes, but it seemed like it was glued shut. I tried saying something, but that didn't work either. 
So there I was, halfly-lifeless, lying on the bed in God knows where. Immediately, I heard someone call my name. It was a man. He was very old and looked very wise. I couldn't tell if it was God or my granddad because I'd never seen him before in my life. Only when I was like three years old,
he asked me what I was doing here and I couldn't say anything. He touched my eyes and immediately everything went fast. All the memories, dreams, thoughts and everything that had happened between these past few months and what had happened earlier with Kim I jacked back to life as I saw Caroline screaming at me.
No, no, no, no! Oh, oh!!!
I screamed and breathed heavily. "She's awake!" The nurse said as she and the doctor rushed in. "What? Where? Where am I?" I said, while feeling very dizzy. "You're in the hospital, sweetie. Everything's gonna be okay. Don't worry. Just relax, okay?" The nurse assured. "What happened?" I asked, looking obviously confused at the moment. 
"You were in a fight and you hit your head really badly on the floor with a dodgeball. You are very lucky to be alive, young lady", the doctor replied. While looking at his clipboard. "Oh, wow, but, ow!" I stuttered in pain. "Just relax, okay? You're gonna be okay. Just relax." The nurse reassured but this time, While she raised my blanket higher so it could cover me better. 
There was a knock on the door. Then the nurse said, "Oh, it looks like you have a visitor." She opened the door and it was Mark. I was excited and angry to see him. "Hey, um" Mark stuttered. "Let's give them a minute." The nurse said to the doctor while they left the room. And closed the door on their way out. 
"So, how are you feeling?" Mark asked. 
"Oh, how am I feeling? How am I feeling? Um, let's, let me see. Well, I got insulted and trash-talked by kim, and not only that, but I also got my head hit on the face by a freaking dodgeball, and fell down, and hit my head hard on the floor, and had a bleeding nose. I think from that, you could tell how I'm feeling right now," I said sarcastically and angrily. "I'm sorry, I didn't say anything, I was just," I interrupted him rudely. "Just what, huh? Look, I don't need your petty sympathy, okay?" I yelled."I'm sorry"
I interrupted him again. "Just leave, Mark. I don't want to see you. Please, just leave. You couldn't help me when I needed the help. Now, you come here, for what reason? Huh? To tell me you're sorry? Look, I'm not in the mood right now. Just leave, please." I said while tears rolled down my cheeks. 
I could see that Mark felt really bad, but I felt worse, like I was publicly disgraced. I broke down in tears, and as Mark immediately hugged me tightly, he whispered in my ear, "No matter what you do, or where you go, I'll always be here for you. I'm sorry I couldn't help you during the fight, but I'm glad you're okay, because I could never have forgiven myself if anything happened to you." He paused, and then leaned back and looked at me. "I love you, Lily. You're the only reason I wake up to go to school in the morning, and my only distraction at night. I love you, Lily. Since the moment I set my eyes on you, I've loved you desperately and passionately. Lily, you are my life, and as far as you are here right now, you are my life. And you'll always and forevermore be in my heart, no matter what." 
I didn't even know what to do. I was short of words, like there was nothing I could say that I felt at that point. Zoe was right. I was in love, but the only problem was that I wasn't with Mark. Well, yes, but I wasn't 'IN' love with him. It was more like a mere crush. 
But Mark made me understand something, which was that I didn't know what I wanted or needed. And now that is gonna cause me a lot of problems. "Mark, I love you, but I need time to understand myself, please." I said while looking into Mark's eyes as he wiped away the tears on my cheek.
"Okay," Mark said in a very calm way. Then he leaned in and kissed my forehead.
Was it still a mere crush?
What was all this? 
I felt a lot of emotions in me But I couldn't understand any. Mark stayed with me until my parents came to comfort me and see how I was doing. I still didn't see Collins and that got me worried, but I didn't want to care Because I felt like he didn't care about me. 
The doctor told us that I'll be staying in the hospital for about a week or two.
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